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i'm very happy :) one of the reasons is that i'm reading a beautiful book that found me at the right time (like usually!) - 'the brave new world' is really moving things inside me and i travel happily in the company of the great character bernard! and i am just very glad to be here in bali :) i have to admit that before coming i felt a bit of a snob about it and thought 'oh no, not me, i won't like bali, it's so touristy' bla bla bla. and then i got here.... and as soon as i left kuta (only 15hours after i arrived, 7 of which i slept)... i discovered wonderful bali :) i haven't been very far away from ubud yet, only as far as i can walk in a day ;) but the villages close by are wonderful! the rhythm is soft and the smells are beautifully sweet :) the pace of life suits me and i am enjoying a quietness i had missed for some time now. this is exactly what i meant when i felt i missed india. this unhurried way of moving, the joy in living, the care for the universe, this mood of having your arms open at all times, of living in balance, of caring, and this knowledge of finding the place to be for now. and this amazing wisdom that there is in knowing how to live this NOW. 'the human spirit doesn't know the after and doesn't know what was already. i have trouble knowing the tomorrow, i don't know, i am not there. here, i am here now, this i know.' told me an old lady today ** i follow her wisdom, or try to. most of all, i'm happy to be alive and my heart feels big and shiny and warm but fresh at the same time, light *